Friday, March 23, 2012

Photo Shoot

When Cecilia was a tiny 2 week old we brought her to the wonderful Shannon Wucherer for her first professional photo shoot. I hesitated quite a bit because she doesn't come cheap, but in hindsight I am SO HAPPY we went ahead and spent that money. We have amazing pictures now that show her in all her tiny baby glory. I've shared a few here and there, but I wanted to share the rest of my favorites! Hard to believe this was almost six weeks ago....

Literally every day we find her with her hand up to her face just like this :)

Thursday, March 22, 2012

Talky Talk

When Simon was just starting to talk, I loved hearing him speak words with clarity. It was reassuring that others could understand him and that, in general, he was doing fine in this area of his development. Now that he's a big 4 year old, though, I love those last few words that are imperfect. I want him to keep talking like this forever, if only because I know he really won't forever. One day he's going to call a cupcake a cupcake and it's going to break my heart a little...

Pupcake: Cupcake
Mipple: Pitt Bull
Yunyin: Onion
Free: Three
Fly Hockey: Air Hockey
Wiff: With
Glittering: Littering
Ravvit: Rabbit

I'm sure there are plenty more where that came from, but that's all I can think of at the moment. Love that boy.

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Picture Time

Thank you, Sarah, for encouraging me to put more pictures on here! Sometimes it feels like a lot of work to plug my camera into my computer, transfer the photos and then upload them to my blog. Stupid, I know. I won't regret taking the time to do it when I look back through this over the years though. So here are a few shots of the kiddos from the past few weeks....

My friend Julie loaned us a Bumbo and my chalk-covered boy has really taken to it. It's like a magic chair that fits everyone.

Cecilia liked it okay for about 2 minutes before expressing her dissatisfaction.

On a walk Simon bumped his face and when we got back he found a tiny bandage and walked out of the bathroom looking like this. Couldn't help but smile.

She's skeptical of Dad...

...and Mom.


Full Smile.


Thursday, March 15, 2012

Adoption is Cool

What do all of these people have in common?

Angelina Jolie
Sandra Bullock
Theresa Hermus
Mariska Hargitay
Charlize Theron

You guessed it! We're all millionaire celebrities! :)

{Mixing myself up with these folks is making me laugh...haha}

I heard today that Charlize Theron is the latest celebrity to adopt an African American baby and it makes me really happy. I'm glad there are more and more people adopting across racial lines...especially celebrities. If nothing else, it helps normalize it and make it cooler somehow. This might be naive thinking, but I feel like the more normal and cool transracial adoption seems to the world, the easier life will be for my beautiful brown baby growing up in this white family.

Monday, March 12, 2012


I took Cecilia to the doctor for the 4th time today since returning home with her. She is 6 weeks old tomorrow and we weren't even in the state for her first the math. Apparently I am "that mom" that the doctors and nurses are probably wishing would find a new clinic already. But what are you supposed to do when your baby isn't eating right or is gagging in the middle of the night or has a weird diaper rash or a cough or, or, or, or...? You call on the doc and hope he can solve your problem.

Our doctor did put his problem solver hat on and we are left with this (for a variety of ailments):
  • Saline drops in each nose, as needed
  • Humidifier on all night, as needed
  • Rice cereal in bottle before bed, indefinitely
  • Reflux meds, once a day indefinitely
  • Breathing meds, twice a day for 5 days
  • Inhaler, directions too complicated to list for 10 days
  • Cream, applied to nether regions 4 times daily for 10 days
Got all that?

I took this peanut in for the lady parts issue and she happened to have a cough that started yesterday so I had them check that out as well. It turns out she has restricted airways so we gave her a breathing treatment in the office and then we were off to the pharmacy. We got there and the pharmacist at Target disagreed with what the doctor ordered so we waited there for an hour for the doctor to call back (I finally called myself and got through right away).

So three hours after her initial appointment was scheduled we were on our way home with a mini-pharmacy in tow and the uneasy feeling that maybe she doesn't really need to be pumped full of so many drugs already; I don't want her to get more sick so I want to take care of business, but I also don't want to overdo it.

Insert concerned face here.

All I want is for these two to be healthy and happy, but sometimes it's not always easy figuring out how to make that happen....

Monday, March 5, 2012

A Songbird and a Meeting

Yesterday I was carrying Cecilia around in my Sleepy Wrap while baking muffins with Simon. At one point, Simon stopped what he was doing to touch her hair and give her a about making a mother's heart leap right out of her chest. As usual, a mix of Glee songs was on in the background and their version of Songbird by Fleetwood Mac came on. For some reason I really listened to the words and looked down at the little person so snug against me and there went my heart again.

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For you, there'll be no more crying
For you, the sun will be shining
And I feel that when I'm with you
It's alright, I know it's right

To you, I'll give the world
To you, I'll never be cold
'Cause I feel that when I'm with you
It's alright, I know it's right

And the songbirds are singing,
Like they know the score
And I love you, I love you, I love you
Like never before


And I wish you all the love in the world
But most of all, I wish it from myself

And the songbirds keep singing
Like they know the score
And I love you, I love you, I love you
Like never before, like never before,
like never before


I've loved her and truly felt like she belonged with us since day one, but I'll admit what I felt for her was different than it was with Simon. I didn't know her. I didn't feel her and see her through my own stretched skin. I didn't know if she would really be ours, which was the biggest difference. When Simon was born, he was unquestionably ours and nobody else would ever be able to say that. Not so with Cecilia...we had to share her and will always have to share her to some degree. Every day, though, I've felt more and more connected to her and I don't know how I could feel any more connected to a baby I gave birth to. Those of you who have children know what I'm talking about when I say that when hold her I can feel that she's mine; I don't know how else to explain it.

This weekend, I started to feel like she was more ours than ever. On Saturday, the woman we will always share her with was holding her in front of me, and we both were aware that only one of us knew how CC likes to be held, what she cries like when she's hungry, that she smiles every day, that her hair turns into tight curls after a bath, that she hates tummy time, and the list goes on.

Yup, we met her birth mom face to face on Saturday.

I didn't tell anyone we planned to do this except my mom who babysat Simon for us. Our last encounter with E was the horrible phone call the night before she signed the papers so I was terrified and just didn't want to talk about it. I'm happy to report, though, that it went smoothly and I'm so glad we went. We spent over 2 hours with E. Tears ran down her face while holding Cecilia almost the whole time we were there. Amidst much silence, we did talk about many things. Mostly we just talked about what we all hoped for the future in regards to our relationship with each other. She wants a lot of involvement and we are not really opposed to that, but we want to take it slowly. We didn't want to make any promises and just want to see how it all plays out one day at a time. She seemed satisfied with that and said she hopes she can earn our trust as the years go by.

We will be able to tell Cecilia that when she was a month old her birth mother held her and kissed her and talked to her and called her nosy and told her she loved her and wanted nothing more than a good life for her; I'm so glad we can tell her these things from an actual experience, not just a guess. I'm so happy that fear didn't keep us away...

Thursday, March 1, 2012


Starting to look at toys!

He is trying to show her how great that toy is, but she's too cool.

Big brother helping out :)

Sleeping animal.

Using flossers to stay entertained.


Broken iPod time.

Love that she's watching him!