I did get A call today. One that I hope is the start of a new, crazy adventure. One that has my hopes skyrocketing, but those hopes could come crashing back down to earth in a hurry.
Goodbye sleep, I will miss you for a few weeks...hopefully more!
My social worker called today to tell me there is a 19 year old Wisconsin woman who is looking for a family for her baby girl, due September 21st. Despite fearing the adoption laws in Wisconsin, we have agreed to be presented to her because how could we really say no?! This woman will be looking at a small handful of families, including ours, and will be deciding who she wants to meet face to face with in the next week or so. Lynn sounded excited for us, which (for better or worse) totally rubbed off!
Now I'm (unsuccessfully) trying to hold back the tears of joy because - let's face it - even if by some kind of miracle this particular baby becomes ours we still have a long journey ahead. This feeling reminds me of getting all those positive pregnancy tests over the years. The feeling of elation, excitement, hope and anxiety all wrapped together. You just pray with all your heart that this time will be different...that this time will be it.
All we can do now is keep waiting. DEEP BREATHS....
I just want to make it clear that we have not been picked yet. The only difference now is that we know someone will be looking at our portfolio who wants a young couple and that "we have a few other things she's looking for." There is simply a known potential at this point. I'll keep you all posted of course :)